games

One of the many reasons I love about RPG games is that, we have moral choices. We can choose to be good or bad. I always choose to be bad, because I love being a villain in games. Then there are times when you are, really connected with the game. Sometimes you cannot bear to choose the bad choice believe it or not. That means it is a good game. haha.

I cant really choose renegade actions in real life. I have a heart. Real life and games are two different things. In games, I can do many things like killing my Dad, spouting vulgarities at my Mom, but in real life I dare not. Or, a simple thing like when a rude guy shouts to you in game, you can choose bad actions but in real life I simply can't.

I simply can't. because I care too much. I have a heart.
hehs.

Vulgar and Badwords

I noticed my not-so-close friends are really vulgar.. They used vulgarities like as if its nothing, its norm for them. Not only on the Internet, in public too.

I know that this is beyond our control, and we cannot do anything to stop them from using vulgarities. We have to be patient, to smile =) and avoid using these badwords. I do not care about myself, but I'm concerned about the people who cannot tolerate vulgarities in public. Actually, almost all cannot tolerate vulgarities, even those who keep using badwords will find it distasteful. I stopped using vulgarities because I know strangers do not like to hear these words, and I see no use for it. Maybe, to help most of you to stop scolding badwords unnecessarily (got times when there is a need to kah?? hehe) you should stop thinking about yourself and start thinking about other people's feelings and impressions towards you. =) if you do not care about other people's impressions towards you, then you need to stop saying 'dont judge me if you do not know me'. hehe. i make sense. =)

bye.

why

Why should I care, if you look like you don't care?

Because I always care. If I don't care, that's not me.
I care too much maybe. But isn't it good to care too much?
=)

Im an RP boy

Republic Poly. One thing I dislike about Republic Poly is all the negativity it gets from people who haven't had any experience in this polytechnic at all. People who are from secondary schools, or nosy neighbours that keep pestering us about the silliness of our choice to get into RP. I cannot control them, I know, so I have to be patient and smile. hehs. But, think about it. You were not from that poly, and you are only repeating things from word of mouth. Plus, you take things from students who did not do well in Republic Poly. haha. =)

To those who did not get their first choice, or suddenly went to some poly that you dislike, be thankful at least you get into Polytechnic. Close friends of mine are dying to get into Poly, but they were not successful, and your attitude towards what you 'unfortunately' got disgusts them. It is not disgusting to me, btw, because we have to smile, be patient and calm about things. hehs. Also, I was given two rows of polytechnic courses which I were eligible for, and I got my first choice. =) Not something to brag about, but I am thankful for what I have now. Going to be in CNB anyway. =) For those who got a lottttttt of courses and yet did not get their choice, too bad. Really, can't do anything except to appeal, and appealing is troublesome you have to be patient and be grateful for whatever comes your way. =)

I would like to say congrats to Luqman and Daniel for being patient with what they have, and they had no complaints whatsoever. They were thankful with what they have, and are slowly working their way to the top. Its a step, all we need is patience. Patience, plus other bonuses like determination and willpower to achieve what we all want. =)

Leslie and I are going to the same Poly! Its going to be fun. =) byebye.

im a musician today

Sorry about the last post, I get so worked up and do not understand why most people have to be racist. What divides the races? hehs. For me, I don't care about my race, its jumbled up anyway hehs. Indian or Javanese who cares... 'we are of the human race'. yeah. hehe.

I recently discovered a new acronym, smh. Smh. What is that?! So I googled it and found out it was Shaking My Head. Its a new trend for the N4G.COM 's users to use something like that when they found out something really stupid. hehe. Smh.

Last week, on Friday, my class had a BBQ at SAFRA. It was a great event as I long time did not see my classmates. Some couldn't make it, others had to leave early, but its good to see most of my classmates again. Fun, and always noisy... A lot of boys I realised.

Okay, time to go.

Im bored for today

I went to a seminar earlier today, and I managed to write down everything the host said. His name is David Liang, and he calls himself a wise man. Im not sure if what he says are even true, but you might learn a thing or two from this guy. Here is his talk in full :

"Are you a racist.?

Hi, my name is David Liang, and I am here to talk about Racism. You all have paid good money to listen to this talk about racism. Are you all racist? Or are you all unintentionally racist? I come here today, to talk about this in full detail.

Im sure all of you will agree that when you see a foreigner slacking in Jurong Central Park or any place with green trees, you will immediately notice and the first thing that comes to your mind or pops out of your mouth will be something racist. For example, 'bangla'. Why is this automatic for some? I'm sure for other races, like Chinese or Malay or Indian, it will be much slower to register to your mind about their race.

Maybe this is strange, but I do not think so. You are all saying like that because you do not want them in this country. Its true, its not bullshit. You will always complain about them overcrowding Jurong Point or the MRT stations when its public holiday. You will complain about their body odour, when clearly body odour is not bangladesh-exclusive! Every single thing they do, you will comment, because why? Because you already condemn them from the start!

So how do you ask? How to overcome this barrier? Its all up to you. Ask yourself this, are you willing to change? Are you willing to love everyone? Can you even do that? We all have been brainwashed by the media. What comes to your mind when I say "Terrorist"? You will probably think of a bearded man, wearing a white turban and preferably a Muslim. Am I not correct? Then, for some its even worse! They even think that all Muslims are terrorist and are ordered to hate and kill. The first step to not being racist is to stop being so ignorant.

Step 1 : Stop being ignorant. Learn from your mistake. Learn what other race/religion/culture do in detail, and stop being so impulsive and jump into conclusions. No need to learn, just stop making yourself look so stupid. Racism makes you look immature, makes you stupid.

Step 2 : Smile, love, and be friendly. Stuck in a lift with a Bangladeshi worker? Stop complaining and start smiling.! If, he does smell due to his body odour, you must remember that it is a HUMAN THING and not a BANGLA THING! Stop being racist, its so childish its unbelievable.

Step 3 : Stop the HATE! Have you ever ask yourself why you hated other race so much? Is it because of their noisy home? Or is it because of their broken family? Wake up!!! Its not a RACE ISSUE, it doesnt run in the RACE! You stop being so ignorant.

All these simple steps ensure that you will not be racist anymore. Racism is a bad thing. Always remember that we are of the HUMAN RACE. There's this new rule right? For new babies they can start changing their race? Well change it to HUMAN RACE.

That's all. You're money's worth.
Thank You and Bye."

Wow, his speech is really awe-inspiring. We are of the HUMAN RACE. Personally, I do not care about my own race. I don't care about races, seriously. Because I am part of the HUMAN RACE, we all are. =)

Today, im an artist, and this is my short bio

Do you like the feeling of being ignored? I do not like it, but that's where I get my inspiration to write music. The feeling of being ignored, feeling down and waiting for something... I channel all these into my music. I write neofolk/atmospheric stuff. I can say that its really going well, im lucky that Achit likes the same type of music.

I can say for most that when people who listen to Black Metal for a long period of time, they will eventually go to something soothing, something more melodic yet heavy at the same time. They will explore many other different genres, and they will come to a genre where they will be most comfortable with besides Black Metal. For most, they find comfort in NeoFolk and Ambient music, something totally different from the raw noise of Black Metal. Yet, they enjoy both different types of music. This is called, evolution. haha... Yes it is. They have evolved to enjoy and appreciate something much finer, something that only geniuses can come up with, something that makes simple things soooo nice.

For me, I have always been a fan of Black Metal. Although I do not support the lyrical themes, I love the music for its vocals and the playing of the instruments. A year ago, I found something that totally changed my passion for music. Its called Agalloch. They came up with masterpieces each and every time, and never failed to play me to sleep. The music is so gooood, that I have to learn how to play them.! But unfortunately, I did not have any instruments at all. But, there was a miracle about 2 weeks ago, when I scavenge the study room for something, I stumbled upon an acoustic guitar! I was overjoyed, and quickly told Achit (my teacher) and he taught me Agalloch stuff. Its simply amazing.

Right now, I'm perfecting a song i'm making with Achit. We have to thank Agalloch for the wonderful inspiration to help us make good stuff, also not forgetting Godspeed You! Black Emperor's amazing song East Hastings. These bands are really worth looking into, as they helped us a lot in making good music.

mcm phm, tapi ade betol sikit.
=)